got balls?

under the bridge.

i never wanna feel how i did that day.

it happened six months ago, that i felt the most pain i have ever felt.
today, the pain is decreased, though it still exists.
he is the first thing i think of when i wake up
and the last thing i think of before i go to sleep.
i sit with a smile on my face still,
but it slowly turns to tears, knowing that he will never forgive me.
i watched this anime, neon genesis evangelon.
and in it, a guy and girl fell in love eight years ago, had a terrible breakup, and then got together again- realizing they still loved eachother.
i really have to stop watching things like this.
theyre giving me false hope.
and that hurts me even more.

new year.

holy eff. its 2010.
well, time for a new start.
but, not really.
resoultions are being set, and WILL be enforced:
- get rid of the stomach- GET SOME ABS
- build upper body strength
- obtain the guy ive been chasing for months
- balance sports, family life, and school
- get good grades in school (mostly math, social, and science)
- be a more positive and kinder person
lets see how that goes, shall we?
im quite excited for this year though.
i get my braces off. IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THREE YEARS FOR THIS.
in a matter of months, my teeth will be naked,
AND BEAUTIFUL.
and, im going to mexico with the famjam,.
though i would prefer BC, im not complaining/
mayian ruins here i come! i love history so much.
its going to be great, PLUS imma get a tan.
but probally just burn. either way, its going to be greatness.
happy 2010 everybody.