santa.

so i basically did all of my xmas shopping today.
i spent less than $100, which is a suprise.
i kinda cheaped out, but hey,
im allowed to do that.
also, caitlin and i got our picture with santa.
and looking at it, brings back memories.
not of the present, but of the past.
i had to take out an old picture, to put the new one in,
and it kind of hurt.
i have issues moving on,
and just live in the past, even if it dsnt suit me.
so, i had to remove the picture of claire and i,
legitmately smiling, and having a ball,
for one with me mechanically smiling at the camera.
i dont know, it just seems...
like the past was so much, happier. carefree.
and, my old best friend promised me that we would get a picture.
but that was last year,
and things and people change.
even though we dont like it, or dont want it,
hell we have to accept it.