sickness.

im sick.
i hate being sick.
youre tired, and feel like crap
and have to deal with everyday stuff anyways.
i dont want to go to school tommorow.
hell, maybe i wont.
after all, theres nothing important on tommorow that i know of.
plus, i missed a two and a half hour practice today.
i feel so bad because of it.
stupid flu.

invite.

okaysoheresthething.
i was invited to my friends dads birthday.
and its kinda the most exciting event this month.
i get to go and be awkward infront of an italian family.
theyre hardcore catholic, so im afraid if they find out im athiest
they will shun me from.. well, italian stuff.
im just, super exited.
my two best friends will be there, with their parents,
and fernando! oh italians...
i dont even know what to write about this.
i supose youll hear more when it happens..?

mooning.

new moon is quite possibly the worst movie ive ever seen.
i saw it in the cheap seats, and the theatre was full.
and by that i mean full of teenagers and middle aged men.
very very few small children, really.
well, the characters were laughable,
the plot was as thin as a receeding hair line,
and the acting was... not avaliable.
overally, we almost got kicked out three times
for talking and laughing at the stupid movie.
eventually, we were told to 'shut the fuck up',
which made me laugh even more.
oh you crazy ston- i mean, edward cullan fans.
just go eat a pice of reality pie.

spa day.

to celebrate my sixteenth, mother and i had a spa day at ten spa.
it was abso-freaking-tastic.
its basically where upper class women go to gossip.
(aka, alana mac. and family.
her mother and i bonded over pita bread.)
between the deep tissue massage and mani/pedi
mother and i gourged on all the sushi, dried fruits, tea and pita bread
that was humanly possible. so delecious.
we were there for five hours, just relaxing.. and sleeping.
that was the most luxerious place ive ever been in-
its on the tenth floor of the ft. gary.
ohmygod. as we were leaving some super sexy english guy
(we're talking movie star hot here)
comes in and asks for a gift certitifate for his girlfriend.
what a cutie... what a lukcy girl.

cuddling.

today was chickflick night with caitlin.
basically, it was a date, minus any sexual attraction.
which is really too bad-
in the sense that we can never get dates, i mean.
like, we cuddle up on the couch
and coon over sweet guys who do adorable things,
then rant about the guys we're fantasising of.
its a great way to spend a friday night.
then again, it also makes your heart hurt a little bit.
especially, if you have your eye on somebody
who turns their eye away from you.
but hey, when all else fails, your girls and ice cream are there.
thats all that really counts.

heels, hookers, and bowling.

i had the best night today in a long time.
bowling for an hour, and not even realizing the time had passed.
there are just those people
you can spend x amount of time with
and have a fantastic time, regardless of the setting.
those people are hard to come by.
i hope everybody else had fun at the dance, though.
maybe the female population vs male population wasnt too overwhelming.
then again, the best times are when its just you and the girls
doing whatever the hell you want.
being sexy, just for the sake of being so,
beats impressing random guys any day.

dance dance.

the dance is tonight at sphs,
and i find it hilarious tickets are being sold at the door.
nobody seems to be going to this one,
which is totally understandable.
its thursday, and people have regular sports and things,
or people just feel this one is just not so important.
and, its not like theres much attraction in going
and rubbing pubes with some guy you do, or do not, know.
then, being all sweaty in a giant circle
and being judged on soley what youre wearing and how you look.
i mean, its great to feel pretty. its a great feeling of self confidence.
but, just not my cup of tea, i supose.
not now at least.
ill be going to the next one, dont get me wrong.
its just id rather be out bowling with my best friend,
getting slushies and laughing until our hearts content.
i cant wait for that tonight.

only you.

dont you hate it when you commit to something
then have to miss it for another commitment?
its a terrible feeling.
because, you feel like youre letting people down.
par example, im missing basketball tonight for some weird vaccine.
i have tweleve people depending one me to be there
and nobody else can relpace me.
everybody has their own roles in sports,
hell everybody has their own roles in life,
and we cant ever be replaced by someone else.
people can try to, but they will never capture every aspect we bring to the table.
but, its also hard.
everybody is different, and being different is fantastic,
but the 'cool' thing now, is to all be the same.
to all strive towards this preconcieved idea of 'perfection' and 'beauty'.
everybody needs to know that they are beautiful.
except if you have terrible eyebrows.
but, even then, your personality is still stunning,
and any guy or potential friend, should take that into account.
individuality shouldnt be viewed as a curse, its a blessing.

ruffle scissors.

remember when we were little,
and we used to make those homemade valentines cards
with the glitter glue and fancy scissors
and the construction paper?
man, i miss that.
just, being able to play around with creativity
and then send cute notes to whoever passed by.
and, giggling with you friends over your second grade love.
then secertly slipping them an extra card,
in hopes that they would like you too.
those days were so easy, and feeling happy was natural.
now, as we've matured,
those feeling of happiness get harder and harder to come by,
and ruffle scissors and glitter glue isnt there for you anymore.
instead, we have our electronic friends we text, or IM when needed.
i miss daily face to face connection,
or even talking on the phone opposed to text messaging.
the human component isnt there anymore.
electronics take away the love.