the pressures of peers.

so today was one of those days.
where the phone that wont stop rinning drags you out of bed
and the caller truns out to be father
who's asking if anyone called him.
then you go back to bed- but cant sleep,
so you end up lying there for a good hour just, thinking.
what came on my mind, was peer pressure of some reason.
i thought about my ex.
and how everybody told me to dump him and get with someone else.
eventually, i came to beleive what everyone was saying,
was obviously the right thing for me to do.
so, after blood, sweat, and tears, we finally broke up.
then i tried to get with the other guy.
and you know what? it didnt work.
i still wanted my ex, and was unsure about a relationship with someone else.
i was pressured to give up my happiness because my friends were telling me about how much happier and more 'right' it would be.
yes, the break up was the best thing to do- they were right about that
but, pressure extended to the second half of the scanario.
like, i wanted to do it, its just, i was unsure. very unsure.
and they tipped me over the edge.
and nothing came of that, except exceptional amounts of hurt and talks of feelings :/
peer pressure has its rights, and its wrongs.
its always okay to listen to your peers if theyre concerned about you,
but dont take on their ideas of beleifs that are thrust upon you
unless you REALLY beleive them.