activities.

argh everyone is going to the ex.
and i understand how people love it.
but i seriously dont see the fun in it anymore.
i spend many many years of my childhood there, and its out of my system.
now, ive moved onto the
'lets hang out in the park or someones basement and just sit back, and relax' stage.
its not more fun, its just more, serane.
i enjoy it, and i beleive thats what matters.
but i just wanted to see mariannas trench on the 20th.
im the most pissed off kid that i cant go.
stupid goddamn wedding.
like, ive never been to a wedding before, and i dont have any need to go to one.
especially when it takes up my whole fucking staurday
ergo prevents me from hanging with people and studying for my exams.
fml. i wanted it so bad,
and my fathers offering to take me for some random hours
but id rather go to all of it or none of it, ya know?
but anyways,
i texted him last night and we're good now.
well, on the surface anyways.
hes my best guy friend, and we tried the 'relationship thing' and it didnt work.
im glad we got it out of our systems now.
i love him. so much.
and i knew if we went all dateish at this age, it would end badly.
so. date other people. become super jealous. cry over it.
no matter what, i will still love him.
and i just want whats best for him.
and whats best, is me being supportive of whatever-
or whoever he decides to do.