decisions.

the decisions we make shape our charcter.
if theyre bad or good, all in all, it ends up the same.
i never take back things i say
or anything that i do, for that matter,
because i beleive everything is done for a reason.
but, im beginning to doubt myself.
love is a strange thing.
ive only loved one guy before- back in the fifth grade.
i didnt realize it until it was too late.
but i was young. its not like i couldve done anything.
i still love him. but, not like i used to.
now, im afraid im in love.
im to scared to do anything because
a. i dont want to ruin a friendship- because im not even sure if i feel anything romantically and
b. i mayve hurt him too bad for him to ever fully forgive or trust me.
i know this is an old topic.
but the thing is, i cant stop thinking about it.
its a stupid love triangle thats still on going.
i love him. like, seriously, i do.
its just that, i dont see us doing anything serious at this age.
being the creeper i am, i can see us being cute little old people together
and getting married and whatnot,
but just not teen dating.
whats wrong with me?
should i just look past that and try even harder, or go with what i feel?
i dont what him to pass me by...