with time.

waiting things out usually solves things like this.
erosion of the situation, if you will.
well, its been...i have no idea how long,
but it feels like years
and the time weve had feels like minutes.
i miss you.
theres so much i wanted us to do.
everything i do reminds me of you.
i dont know if you feel the same way,
but really? you can only stay mad for so long.
youre a forgiving guy.
im hoping youll show me that side of you.
ive been trying to move on-
talk to friends, meet new people, get in a relationship.
but, i dont really have the will power to do it.
the day after our...last fight,if you want to call it that,
i sat in the basement under a blanket for two days
staring at the blank wall eating pails of ben and jerrys,
waiting for the phone to ring.
or really, praying that it would.
i knew it wouldnt though. it never did.
not a day goes by that i dont think about you or regret my mistakes.
i know i cant take anything back,
and i beleive that i shouldnt, since everything happens for a reason.
alana told me a saying that i havnt heard in a while:
if you love something set it free, if it comes back its yours.
if not, it was never yours to begin with.
youd say you can only come back so many times.
i sort of agree... but, you blew it way out of proportion.
you really did.
but i love you regardless.
do what you will. ill be here- but not forever.
i cant gaurentee that.